Greneery

"eh u tak sedih ke tengok ni? heartless lah u ni bla bla bla" "kenapa enti ni heartless sangat, takkan tu pun tak sedar ish ish ish" "eee heartless nyaa kau ni. takde perasaan betul buat camtu" ***** eh penatlah dengar orang cakap kita heartless, kadang kadang kita berubah being someone yang tersangatlah caring ... (trial) "eh eh u ni ada masalah ke? ada pape i boleh bantu" "yaallah kesiannya awak ni. kenapa ni kenapa ni?" tapi, kita end up rasa "masyaallah fake nya aku. macam plastic sampah" (besar sikit saiz) because you're no that kind of person sejak azali. you can easily feel sorry to a person but not in the way you want everyone around you to know. (silently care?) ***** you then wonder, what is the actual meaning of heartless person ?  are they a group of people who don't have any hearts OR the person who is feelingless, lifeless OR hardhearted person. idk. if that so, "am i ...

Sometimes (almost every time),  I did something that against You. I did certain actions that really disobey You. I did try to have everything on my own way, own rules. I did read your love letters but there's still no further awareness.  I did know You asked me to not go nearer, but I ended up doing that abundant. I did realize You see every single step of mine but I acted like those all hidden. I did understand but I remain on those forbidden.  Yet, You never failed to comfort me, to make every single drop of tears rolling down the cheek.  To realize me You're the only one I could rely on. To make me feel like I still have a new life to live on. To draw a smile on me because there's always a hope, a chance. To make me indulge every moments You created. To let myself be a good friend of Yours. To make me share each of the problems with You. Wallahi. Now I feel much better. :)